Hello people. How are ya’ll doing. I probably spend too much time on the first few lines of every blog post than I do the other parts which seem more important😂😂😂. See, the problem is, I try so hard and I’m an overthinker. I have to decide whether I should say hi in a foreign language or be normal and just say hi (you know, like normal, regular people. But I’m not normal and regular is not one of the words in my dictionary😂😂😂 but you guys already know that). Sometimes I even wonder if the hi is important and sometimes, I wonder if I should tell you what I’ve been up to or why I have been away for so long but all the reasons are crappy because more often than not, I have nothing important going on in my life. I’m on a pattern, a cycle if you may. I wake up, eat, stay in bed all day long, eating and doing unimportant stuff like rewatching old nickelodeon shows on netflix and going through instagram wishing I had the strength and boldness to do what the people I follow are doing. Everybody but me is worried that it’s unhealthy, it is unhealthy but I’m not dead yet so I guess that’s a hard pass😂😂😂.
I am also probably one of the crappiest bloggers you’ve ever met😂😂(met?…seen?…known?…read???😂😂😂sorry). I know, I know, you don’t have to tell me. Most days I don’t have the strength and other days my overthinking gets the best of me and now I’m even wondering if I am going to go through with this blog post🤦♀️😂😂😂. Let’s not get into that right now😂😂😂. I spend most of my days wishing I was doing something important with my life like maybe document my fashion, take cute pictures of the food I make and eat, visit places and take more pictures of that too and maybe even do something that counts. But nah, my fashion sence is only cool in my head (the deras and baggy tees I wear from monday to saturday don’t help either😂😂😂), the food I eat, omena (sardines) and skuma wiki (kales), won’t look good on my insta and the only place I’m in that is not home is the market (where I am always forced to go because… I don’t even know why I am the one who has to go🤦♀️😂😂) and church (you know, because, yeah😂😂😂…sundays are also the only days that I get to look good 😂😂😂 because….church. God is the only man I’d look good for😂😂, To be fair, he is the only guy in my life outside family, no wait He is family isn’t he, wait, no, let’s just leave it at that😂😂😂. ‘Gives a sigh of relief’)
*It also saddens me, greatly, that important to me means fashion, food and travel. I wish I was more interested in the economy and understand things like cryptocurrency and maybe even the weather. At the moment weather is the last thing on my mind because it’s May and it rained almost everyday in April so I didn’t have to hear my mom tell me to go out a lot, my definition of almost perfect😂😂😂. Sorry I also made this one long😂😂😂.*
The world has taught me how to blame my overthinking tendencies on my horoscope😂😂😂. Yes!! I am one of those people who believe that the moth I was born in somehow affects my whole personality or is it the the way the sun aligns itself with, I don’t know, something, I don’t even understand half of that stuff, but I am a believer of most things I don’t understand and what I do know is that I’m a Virgo and virgos are overthinkers. (Wait, is it pronounced veeh-go or vajo because if it’s the second one I’ll laugh to death and I have been pronouncing it both ways depending on the mood I’m in😂😂).
While overthinking sometimes keeps me from unnecessary drama, it keeps me from living my best life. I could be living my best life right now, being the best version of myself but my anxiety and overthinking is keeping me in my bed. I’m challenging myself this month to stop my overthinking tendencies. How do I do that? I don’t know but as usual, I have a list to follow:
1. Remind myself that everything embarrassing I do only proves that I tried even though I failed and the best I can do, is get up, clean my dusty ass and move on, maybe one day I’ll look back and laugh about it.
2. Remind myself that more than half of the time, the people I want to please don’t even give a crap about the shit I do. It’s all in my head.
3. Remind myself that if I live in my head a lot, like I do, I will miss out on everything nice the real world has to offer. Sometimes I just need to jump in without thinking, and if I drown, I lived a happy life and died a good death.
Join the challenge and make these you May Mantras. It’s time to show your anxiety who’s the boss.
Happy new month to you peoples. Until next time Muchachos (I did the foreign language thing but I feel good about it😂😂😂)